THE SIDE OF ME YOU NEVER SEE

This is just a tiny peer into the shallower end of the depths of my soul. A lot of things may be out of character from my natural demeanor but I can't allow myself to worry about that anymore. I am a structure with walls however, the doors are now wide open.

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Ever needed to engulfed in something so sweet, yet so bewitching; something that consumes you like a moth drawn to the flame? If not you will be....to help me...to understand me...you must first help and understand yourself.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Conversation of The Elite Minds of MHS

Our Culture
The Issues Plauging The African American Society

The One and Only Devin S : When are we, as black people going to really come up? Our desperate attempt for dignity is constantly being opressed, not by the man, but by our own inability to recognize real prosperity. We get a little money and waste it on unecessary needs in order to gain the recognition of are racial counterparts. This wasteful nature often creates stereotypes that do nothing to benifit our culture, if we can call it a culture any more. The culture of the African American society has slowly deteriorated almost to the point of non existence. We were once represented by strong black people who enforced change in our social structure. Now, the black culture has been reduced to Tall Tee's and grills. We used to speek with such eloquence as to envoke emotions and change perspectives. Now a new age of slang has taken over and has stigmatized us with the mark of imaturity. Now the question rises "Can we recover from this miserable slump?". The answer is yes, but in order to do so we must break away from the bondage that binds us to the chains of ignorance. Together, we can make a difference.

One Love,
DEVIN S.
The One And Only


Undaground Lyracist: sounds like an ACTSO essay by an undisclosed individual...LOL! but i completely agree with u. but of course it is much easier said than done. I for one, feel that we should start a movement 2 try & increase awareness about the deterioration of our culture and at the same time, evoke an interest 4m young ppl 2 begin the chance that will carry our generation into adulthood. It took one man 2 get millions of african americans 2 add the word "krunk" 2 our vocab., one man 2 get millions 2 begin the "grill" movement, one man 2 make "snap music" the hottest thing in the music industry, so why can ONE MAN begin a movement 2 initiate a change in the direction of the development and advancement of our "culture". DEVIN, U HAVE INSPIRED ME, WE CAN START THIS CHANGE. IM SERIOUS.

WIsH I WAs drEAMin bUt ITS ReAl... : Devin....i agree completely. Why didnt u do poetry for actso. But Anyways that was really good and more BLACK people (per se) should feel the same way about our culture. It has gotten past ignorance and is just plain embarrassing. But hey get back at me

Inspired Poet: WOW! I completely agree with you Bro! However we are have more freedom than our ancesteral counterparts. They fought in the struggle so that we do not have to today. Martin Luther King Jr. got shot so that you and I and other intelligent minority children can take an advanced math course taught by a teacher who's ethinicity and culture is also a minority in this country we call America. On the other hand, the prevalency of our culture being in our faces on a daily basis has diminished in a sense but it is up to this current generation to trade in the grillz, tall tees, white tees, and sagging for a better re-education of the past to not only ourselves but the kids we are producing. If the schools don't teach black history and we don't at least tell our kids of the civil rights movement, affirmative action, and their great grand parents accomplishments in history all the way down to us then we as a black, no African Americanized race will lose our face and focus in this ever changing world. Thanks for the platform.

So you see that the truth really is in the eye of the beholder. Thank you to the people who initiated this conversatoin of great minds and we plan to implement it. If you have something to add you know where to comment me.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

SEX IN OUR LIVES. CAN WE DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT?

Why is that today's music is so fascinated with sex and body parts and "tryin' to get to you and that monkey?" can't we talk about love and tryin to get through the day like we used to? I mean yes as an aspiring song writer myself not all of my songs stay away from bedroom life or activities but they could be played on the local radio staitions without having to bleep out portions because it's about a coochie or puttin' somebody penis on your forehead. The people involed with creating and writing these song are not un-learned ignoramuses. Of course we have constituional protections and of course they are labeled as artists and bring personal experiences to the forefront of Americas conservative ears but not every song has to be about bangin some hoe, trick, or bitch back out then havin your unbornflow in her mouth cuz she went down on you.
I'm just saying if we keep airing our dirty laundry on the radio waves and we grow up alright and we keep supplying this and direct it to the younger generations then they become sexually active at earlier ages and start having kids and possibly spreading HIV/AIDS and other sexually transmitted diseases when it all could have been slowed by thinking about what we are going to present to the media for self- advancement. I am not standing on my soap box for nothing. I'm not even saying that we need to conform to a strictly no-sex, no freedom of speech campaign on the radios/ in media. I am saying that we must use caution in the ways we want to talk about our experiences. Since we are artists, let's get creative. Be creative if we want to let the people in our old hoods know about that special person you had your first time with or you ran your first train on. Pick up the phone.

Don't read much into that second to last statement. I don't support running trains at all but its out there in our ears and our kids. CAN WE PLEASE DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT?!!

They say that no man is an island
Well what about a woman?
I know that none of us can exist without the existance
Or help from others,
But what if I just want some time to my ownself
Without the cares of high maintainence,
Good grooming, babysitting, keeping up with certain relationship?
One thinks about the possiblities and how much of a farce it is
To even come up with this because
It is impossible to take a break from everything.
I mean really. Just to let everything, everywhere grow and not worry about it
Say what you want and abolish perfectly functioning relationships
F**k up friendships that you have taken so long to establish
For sometime away from the pressures of life.
Oh come off of it! My inner self reminds me.
People rely on me and count on me to come through
With what they need when they need it.
I will get my rest when I rest.
GOD will restore me anyway because HE told me HE would in the BIBLE
You know '' When you are weak then you are made strong"
So I have nothing to worry about right?
Yeah nothing to worry about but I'm not scott free yet.
The enemy still persists and seeks after my soul. SO what should I do?
What I've been doing all along. "Trust in the LORD with all my heart
and lean not to my own understanding."
Besides why trip off the inevitable. It solves nothing.

My Proposal

Hey babe, how you doin?

Well um. I don't quite know how I want to direct this but I've been thinking about it for a while since that night we talked about kids and an addition or two of our own. Well I know we both have to finish school and get established but I was wondering if you would mind, because again I have been wondering about this for a serious while... But I was wondering if you would do me the offer of giving me a stick of gum and get in the car so we can go to the movies because we haven't seen the new World Trade Center movie yet.

Well this has been an alright week. You know everything went very well. Friendships are good. Life is good. GOD is most definitely GREAT!! However why is it that some people just don't get where you're coming from when you say something directed toward them. Do we as humans just rather not bother with other people's problems because we are so self obsorbed from our lack of communication-- praying like we used to to GOD? I mean really I was on the phone with a friend a couple of days ago and I was just sitting there listening to him talk about a lot of things I wasn't interested in. I put the phone down and he kept talking. In a way it offened me but I've learned not to let things like that get on my nerves because there is nothing I can do to change that or that person except tell them about it. It's up to the indivual to change it themselves. I still love the brother though.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Is U Really Wit Me?


You tell me that you love me
Man f' all that s***! All you wanna do is f' me
I wish I would not have let you in
D*** I wish I wouldn't have listen'd
He** a month is hard to come by
How the f*** we gonna think
About marriage & havin' kids
Every time we get like this it
Makes me wanna say forget it,
I don't need this s***!
But then I come back to reality and remember that
Love is about the good times and bad
Like Biz Markie and Mario--
Baby u got what I need,
But am I just an idea of a good friend
Instead of your girl friend?
What I want to know: Is u Really Wt Me?
April 20, 2006

The Eyes Inside


The eyes inside say more than your mouth could ever fathom.
The eyes are the key to one's soul.
More than simple words and meaningless expressions.
When staring into the eyes of the one I love I see a million things and a million problems that he never has to say anything about because that's the power love and the eyes have over another. When GOD made us HE made us in HIS image so that when we look around and look out at the people in various places we see HIM and HIS idea of beautiful and perfection. Without the Key to one's soul one would not be able to see and behold how something taken for granted like a grain of sand or a blade of grass can tie into the parallels of your life. If there wasn't one blade of grass there wouldn't be others to grow more and remind us that THE EYES HAVE IT! One of the greatest luxuries and necessities in the world. Without we could adapt but, GOD saw fit that we have them because...
The eyes inside can sometimes say more than your mouth could ever fathom.


But don't get me wrong. Saying it sometimes is just a whole lot better and clearer too.